Is anyone else afraid to pray?

[MissingMyAmazingSonBrad]

I have been afraid to pray- When I pray I sob - I can't get a grip -
I trusted so much in prayer, & no matter what aweful things life threw at us - I would thank God that it wasn't worse & for the blessings of our family. Begging him to keep us all healthy & safe- I never prayed for the little things - And thanked more than anything. I feared worse things happening- for I have had much loss in my life & know it happens- But- I trusted that God would protect us. I am not mad at him & I don't blame him- I just don't understand- & fear that something not of God listened to my prayers- So now I am Afraid to pray. I guess I sound crazy - Does anyone else feel this way?

[Judy]

Yes I too am afraid. I cry often, but alone. I think that if I pray to God, really seeking him, that I am so afraid that I will lose all control of my emotions. I might find emotions that I don't even know exist. I just am afraid of where it might end up - at least I am functional at this point. I don't want to totally loose it I need to have some control. I am just afraid, of what, I guess I don't really know, but I do know what you mean.

[Jeanne Christie]

Hi Judy,
I am so sorry that you too are in so much fear and pain.
You are NEVER alone, you have your guardian angel around you who can also feel your pain- not to mention your Heavenly Father who loves you very much!
We have to accept our losses, as we don't know what God's greater purpose is at present.
All we can do is try to get through it, love all we come into contact with and try to use the experience to make us a more caring person, in our everyday life.
I pray that you will soon be comforted.
Lots of Love Light and Hugs
Jeanne
xx

[Director]

I am not sure of the words to share here. I want to keep it simple...

The fear of total surrender of your heart to God can seem tremendous. However, the pain of struglling with out Him in our lives is far greater. I pray that you feel the faith and let Him Carry your load.

Eric

[Janna Campbell]

I understand what you are saying. Back then I was angry at everyone, God included. How could he let this happen to Kere, she had so much to give and touched so many? He says he will not give us more than we can handle, as we all know to well, this is pretty darn close! One day, we will know the entire picture. Kere's life on earth is through. Why it was for only 21 years I don't have the answer today, but some day I will. She came and served the purpose she was to serve and He took her home. This is a round about way, Karen of saying I know what you mean, I was there. God hasn't let you down though, it is through these times that he carries you. (big hugs) Janna

[Jeanne Christie]

Dear sister
Idon't want to call you 'missing....- as that is not all you are!
You are also a much loved wife, mother, and beloved Divine daughter of our Heavenly Father.
He knows exactly what you are going through, but has not called your son home to cause you pain.
Heaven is rejoicing at his return!
Never be afraid to pray -He is your Father, just as much as you are your son's mother!
He will help you to cope with your loss - don't be afraid to cry, or 'lose' it-
tears are very healing..
You are not crazy, you have had a very traumatic experience, which will take a lot of time to recover from.
There is nothing more fearful than fear itself!
Just surround yourself with Love, Light and God's Angels and you will be very much protected.
We don't understand our Creator's greater purpose at present, but we will when the time is right.
Just Trust in Him.
I pray that you will soon feel much better!
Lots of Love, Light and Hugs
Jeanne
xx

[Director]

I know that feeling.... I tried this and it works. Pray for strength and healing as you pray. God sits with you as you and He talk..... It hurts but He does add comfort. Remember too... crying is healing.