Losing a child.

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Comment by Amanda on May 10, 2008 at 11:37am

Hi, I'm so glad I found this (or rather it found me!). Still trying to find my way around, but want to say hi to everybody so long.

Comment by Cyndi Reinhardt on May 8, 2008 at 8:09pm

I am rejoining this, because my other page stopped working and i could never quite figure out how to get it to recognize my login. So this is my new page.

Anyway, I had been thinking about Chris today when I was talking to a friend about changes that have been taking place since he died. I felt very sad because it was around this time that he had gotten a very bad infection from having a low white blood cell count. He was delierious from fever and had a low blood pressure and high pulse. He was sleeping a lot and so the usual joking around and watching reality shows together was out. I remember looking at him and thinking that even though he was 18 years old, he looked so small in that bed. I also remember thinking for the first time since he started treatment in January, that he could die. A week later, he was doing fine anad graduating from High school. A week after that, he had a CT scan done before he went to the next round, the usual routine. The results were not good- the cancer was back. The first anniversary of these events is quite painful, but I noticed that as I was very upset about remembering all of it, I was still able to function. Something like this before, would mean curling up on the couch or in bed for the rest of the day and shutting down emotionally. I am slowly making progress and even though I don't like living without him at all, i know I can get through things as they happen and still make baby steps forward. I thought that was a pretty awesome discovery.

Comment by mopigeonsmom on May 3, 2008 at 9:19am

7 months since Chris died today. Not a great day, but each one I get through is one nore day closer to seeing him again. I miss his laugh. His whole body shaked when he laughed sometimes, which really got us going. He would get excited about the simplest things: gummy bears, drumstick ice cream, a sandwich I had made him the last time he was in the hospital and we all knew he was stopping treatment. He savored EVERYTHING! The tears and the memories get in the way of me savoring life the way I think I should, to honor his memory. But I will get there eventually, because I know he is cheering me on.....

Comment by Tonya on April 14, 2008 at 5:26am

doing good. I hope you get all of the signatures you need. I signed it and I told all of my friends and family to sign it.

Comment by mary l zoglio on April 9, 2008 at 4:15pm

HI ALL!
HOW AS EVERY ONE BEEN?I HAVE BEEN REAL BUSY WOORKING ON PETITION,THAT IS NOW AT 630,WE ARE GETTING THERE,BUT TIME IS RUNNING OUT,SO I HAVE BEEN SENDING LETTERS TO GOVERNMENT OFFICALS TO,WELL I HOPE ALL ARE WELL AND DOING WHAT IT TAKES TO GET THROUGH THE DAY,JUST ALL WAYS KNOW YOU HAVE A FREIND RIGHT HERE,HUGS TO ALL,PRAYS TOO......